Since my birthday this year was celebrated in the dark with 1 million others who had no power so my mind had time to steer clear of the usual technical keyboard, big screen high definition color overload and distractions of the day to come ups with some more random thoughts for the coming 2007 New Year.
This list is by no means complete… but it is good and something to strive for.
I think I will find some of these things, but not for many years, if that, but I have decided on a quest. I have to search within myself to make it happen, but I want it…. It will be hard, very costly (financially, physically and emotionally) and could be life threatening… but… ah…. The reward and wonder if I succeed, immeasurable.
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This is the man who will take me there
I want... peace – inner serenity, calm and forgiving consciousness, Peace of mind, of soul and of commitment to purpose. Peace that is found in silence alone when you think all is lost and hope is at your fingertips and then…. Peace.
I want... a future – to put the past behind, to learn from it, to grow from it, to let it release me into the unknown future with clarity and direction.
I want... purpose – purpose beyond the obvious, to find a meaning to breath, to leave a mark, to make an impression, to create a lasting legacy, to make a difference, to have impact on someone or something in a profoundly positive way that my wrongs can be forgiven.
I want... connections – to be connected to another in a way that words do not and cannot express, in a way that is palpable from a great distance, in a way that changes and alters the heart and mind, to allow it to become greater than what is possible by being alone.
I want... security – not safety or financial prowess, but rather security of soul, security of mind and heart. To be secure in who I am, what I do, and more importantly, WHAT I AM. Secure is the knowledge of what I am and how I live the life I create by being who I am.
I want... a reason – a reason to sit up, a reason to walk proud, to take a stance, a reason to live, a reason to breath hearty, a reason to not drink, a reason to run, a reason to climb to the top, a reason to have a reason to care about a reason.
I want... change – change the things I cannot change about myself unless I sacrifice everything, to change my heart into something more pure and honest, to change my emotions to care more, to change my stride so that it has purpose.
I want... love. Simple and pure, to well up inside at the thought of “that” emotion that makes you happy, sad, weep and joyful with a full body shake, to love not for itself or to say it out loud but to love because it’s the food that feed your soul, makes you grow and sustains your life so you can become what your intention is… what your purpose is… what your reason is… what your security becomes… what connects you and gives you peace, the love that demands you change, the love that shows you the way so the future is bright. The love that gives you more to be what you could be.
I want… more - just more ….