Full Moon Words
Posted on | September 14, 2008 | No Comments
“See… I knew it! I told you so!”
“Uh Yes, well… I mean, I was right, I mean, I knew the answer, so, I mean….”
Impeccable With Your Word
To Die – Symbolically
Posted on | September 13, 2008 | No Comments
I have lived in fear.
I have let my negative dream and poisonous agreements and false understanding of the world lead me astray. I have lived in fear. I have let the parasite of fear infect me and feed off me, drive my emotions and kept my Word unclear.
I have lived in the fog, fueling my negative emotions. To break free of this parasite, takes courage and comes now. The dream I have lived has fed my belief system, it has kept my focus and my attention on the negative agreements of my life to support my fear and personal negative judgements.
I have lived with Addiction.
Addiction to Fear
Addiction to Anger
Addiction to self pity
Addiction to loathing
Addiction to misery.
It has been an agreement with myself to repeat this process, to spread my poison and live in the fog. Moreover, to bring people into my fog.
It is a Declaration of War.
I am a Warrior.
A Warrior has awareness…. awareness requires discipline. Discipline to be ourselves, no matter what.
A Warrior has control…. control over my emotions, over myself.
A Warrior refrains… Refrain is to hold the emotions in and express them at the right moment.
I am not a Victim…
Victims repress…
Victims feed on the feed, the pain, the suffering.
Victims spread the poison.
I don’t have to suffer. I will use the Truth to heal the wounds and take from me the poison that infects my dream, tarnished my Word.
I will travel to the Desert to meet my demons head on. I will break the black magic spell and come out on the other side with clarity. I will not stop until I am at the Core of all the Agreements.
Repetition makes the Master.
I will start with my Word. Slowly and daily. Little by little. I will start small and break them. I will take back the power, control my power and free me from the fog. I will expel the agreements that have made me suffer.
I will replace each one, each space, each amount of energy it had consumed with a new agreement. Step by step, a positive agreement will take root in the space that help the poison.
I will not allow the negative energy to deplete me any longer.
I will not allow this negative power to drive my pain and fear.
I will no longer allow the negative emotions to justify my anger, my fear.
I will take back the power, break the hold and make the change for the better.
I will heal the wounds that have infected my mind, soul and body and created the unjust dream which I thought was normal and acceptable.
Awareness
I am aware of my fog.
This awareness will help me transform to transcend the negative dream.
I will look head on at each agreement I have created, lived with, lived by.
I will reprogram my mind.
I will Explore Alternative Beliefs
I choose to Forgive.
I will forgive Myself first. I will forgive my parents, my friends and others, because of compassion and for love. I will no longer allow the past cause pain and create the fog. I will no longer be the judge that I cannot please.
Self love comes from this forgiveness. From loss of self rejection, having self acceptance. Self love grows stronger each day when we accept ourselves and who we truly are, who we ARE.
Forgiveness is the Key
I will know I have forgiven others when I no longer have the emotional reaction that drove my fear, that drove me to have impure Words, to be angry, to assume, to control or manipulate. I will no longer see the pain, they cannot touch my old wounds. This is not denial, which is just a lie to cover up our wounds and pain. Instead, this is a release, freedom.
I will forgive myself and start to see the world, positive and healthy. I will take the power and the control. I am the Warrior who has emotional power, to not loose control and say or do things that I do not want. I will be Impeccable with my Words.
Today I die, symbolically. I will be resurrected in love.
I am a Warrior.
Be Impeccable With Your Word
Posted on | September 11, 2008 | No Comments
Speak with integrity.
Say only what you mean.
Avoid using the word to speak against yourself or to gossip about others.
Use the power of your word in the direction of truth and love.
Speak to be open, to be a mirror of love.
Stop lying to yourself about what you truly want and what you truly need.
Love will not change anyone. If change happens its because they want to change.
Real love is accepting people the way they are without changing them, if we try to change them, then we dont really like them.
If I change, it is not for the other person or for their love, its for me and me only.
The result, if it is authentic and “Impeccable” – “without sin, then I will get, in return, what I have done for myself.
Our biggest fear is taking the risk of being alive and express what we really are and being ourself.
We hunt for love because we don’t have it and often seek this out from others who don’t have love either. We are then surprised and upset when this relationship doesn’t work out.
“Every relationship can be wonderful, but it’s going to begin with you. You need to have the courage to use the truth, to talk to yourself with the truth, to be completely honest with yourself.”
As I See It
Posted on | September 9, 2008 | No Comments
–Not listening is the biggest regret
–Regrets can kill you, kill your mind, kill your soul
–Thinking, believing, arguing the case that you are right will mean you are nearly always wrong
–Self reflection is painful and most always done in a cracked mirror
–Finding the courage to get a new mirror to see yourself is heart-wrenching but true
–Seeking help and staying with it takes patience and self will to not see distractions
–Acting correctly before others react to you is so damn hard but lends itself to shorter pain and greater gain
–My written words will someday be my spoken words
–Its easy to hurt, harder to love
–It has to be worth it, right?
Classic Dave
Posted on | September 2, 2008 | No Comments
We hit all 3 shows this year, fantastic event, mostly old school DMB with some new cover songs that I have not heard before: – Money, Burning Down the House, Sledgehammer and of course favorite Watctower!
I hear they are not touring next year, so my days at the Gorge could be few if any next season.
